可惜没有如果

圣诞节 非常开心的节日，出门逛街走走吃吃。逛街时 突然看到你的好朋友 和他的女朋友也在开心牵着手逛街。和他们打声招呼就走了。每走一步 心情就越低落，心里一直在想 如果你还在就好了。 如果你还在，你应该也和你的女朋友开心地逛街。如果你还在，你一定做得和你的朋友一样好。

可惜真的没有如果。很多时候都忘了你已不在的事实，说着你的事 或提起你的名时 只感觉你只是出了远门。可是接踵而来的感觉是非常现实和残酷的。每次想起你 就是小时候我们一起玩 每次你欺负我 然后我哭讨厌你 的情景 不然就是长大的你很有礼貌 大哥哥的样子。。。

如果你还在。。。就好了。。。

Out of Sudden

I have seen a lot of my friends continue their postgraduate studies right after they graduating their degree, which is a very good news. but also, I saw the majority of them not seen to be so mature as a postgraduate student should behave. This has told me in the deep of my mind that I should have some working experience before I further my study.

I worked, for not so long. And Benzaiten (one of the Seven Lucky Gods) chose me, to have a chance to continue my postgraduate study. I have just started my postgraduate life for about two weeks. Just from the two weeks itself, I saw that working experiences in related field do help a lot in the logical thinking and also the way to solve the problem.

I was the youngest in the class. Not surprise that, postgraduate students are different from age, occupation and experiences, which students ourselves already making the class so interesting that everyone has their own experiences regarding the ideas to share.

Although I do not work that long that I have planned to, but this little experience helps me to think wider.