我还是很怕狗！！

哈哈，昨晚一个人走回去宿舍时，有一只狗跟着我哦，我不怕！！ 可是当其他狗吠着和追那狗时，吓到了！...那只狗是想要我保护它的~但真的是太多只了，对不起哦！哈哈！...然后我赶紧走回去找我的朋友， 叫她陪我回去！哈哈，谢谢你。 另外，我听到一个好残忍的话哦...这个是其他人告诉我的~..."这个学校的水准不是很高的吗？那为什么她可以进来啊？" 那个她是指我啦！听到时，还蛮hurt的！没关系，我spm成绩烂是事实...但谢谢你让我有一股冲动想证明给你和我自己看的力量。

I DID NOT WANT TO FIGHT, doesnt MEAN I AM WRONG!

What the****!!!!! i did not want to argue with you, because you are elderly!!! if i argue, i might be wrong due to no manners to YOU!!! since the words came out from your mouth, i was totally disappointed. very sad. no one scold me like this. YOU PROTECT YOUR LOVE, doesnt mean you can hurt others. I, also my parents's love!!!!!!!!!!!!

STUPID!!! i dont like to explain doesnt mean i am wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just dont want to make things worse. but you seemed like scold me until like...!

i am sad. not because i felt sorry to anyone, just because i never being scold until like this!! maybe you dont know me well...I WILL NOT APOLOGIZE TO WHOEVER IF I AM RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!

i know you will spread this to them, i dont mind, as long as people who care me and my parents understand me well.

我还是那个安慧 =D

现在每天都会到学校的图书馆 去看报纸！哈哈！...可是，最近读那些不幸的新闻时，好想哭哦，总觉得心有余而力不足！心里会觉得酸酸的~ 这样就会知道自己是多么的幸福！不会再想要其它的东西了~ 我不贪心！大家健健康康 平安！ 想想，朋友之间的距离还是一样的靠近吗？有来就有去的吧~也不能拿在手心不放啊~ 我爱你，爸爸妈妈~

The moment was just like i am in JB.

how i passed thought this weekend? i had a good weekend, my family came and visit me after they finished their works. they were rushing from JB to here. i was touched. i miss them so much (3 weeks dint meet them, but it liked few months) aiks! we went to my cousin's house stay one night then went to genting in the next morning! even thought they sat or slept beside me, i still miss them! seem like my homesick is getting serious!....well, they sent me back to my hostel sunday 4.00pm something. i had control myself not to cry. i successed but my heart not feel fine.

thomas ,big ky, sh, ky and Kv came my hostel and picked me out for dinner! i felt like i at JB when i was in thomas's car. hope that he send me back to my house as usual but not back to here. =P but it wont happen, i understand it. really felt warm and safe when i saw familiar face, cant express my feeling in words. but it was like want to hug them and say love you! haha...XD i really love you guys! miss everything there!

混不进的感觉很不好受

不知道是语言障碍还是真的混不进，每次说了几句....大家就没话谈了，不只我哦，有一些也是这样。是我太心急了吗？还是我英文烂到他们不明白？ 有时看到他们一群群的说话，都报以羡慕的眼神。 哈哈！不是说我没有朋友啦，只是有时很难混进其他人的群里。~ 希望这只是一时的吧。 肩膀我还是不习惯给人动，但我的反应没以前那么大了啦，不然，这里的朋友应该会吓倒吧...哈哈！

在这里的日子

才过了两个礼拜而已，就好像过了一个月多。很想家，也很想看到他们（就是你们啦）...这里不错啦，只是离城市远了点，晚上安静了点，无聊了点...有个朋友教我暂时忘了他们，这样才会让自己好过一点，不会这样想回去 jb... 真的还蛮有效的，不过不是忘记，而是不去想... 一直很想知道那里发生了什么事，很想跟进...只为了怕跟他们拖离...

可是也还好啦，很多人去跟更远的地方读书咯，我只是在KL而已嘛...不能跟近的人比，也只好跟远的人比...这样才能安慰自己啊！

first day of my uni life.

it is really not the first day actually. i moved to my hostel last thursday! and i cried like hell, felt homesick once my parents left. yup, felt warm that my two cousin brought me to their house during weekend. or else i cant even imagine how i gonna pass last weekend. well, i had nice weekend! today is my first day of class start. not bad, but just cant understand some words! dictionary, here i come!....

home sweet home

now i am just realised that staying with your family is so sweet and feel warm. i am going to leave JB and go to KL study, yup, someone will think i am just childish, doesnt mean i wont meet my family and friends again once i go KL. but i just never leave home alone for study purpose. NO, i know i can make it! i have to think positve! i can make friends there, shopping!!!! and get my target nearer! i had made promise to someone that one year after, we are not using parents' money to study, but we will get an offer of full schorlaship! give me positive spirit! i need it now! =)

外人

原来一直以来，你都是不相干的人...

现在发现 还可以抽离 虽然会空虚，难过， 不舍...

但终比 一直被伤害吧！

我忠告你啊，离开吧，看得出你已经累了，支撑不了... 等到你有一天倒下时，也不会有人真心地关心你的！

七年了=）

这七年里，大家都改变了不少吧...但我对你的思念没少过，每当经过你的旧家时，都会想起我成长的点点滴滴 你对我们两姐妹的悉心照顾...有时生病了，你还会要求让我住在那儿...妈妈有时因工作需要而出国共干时，你也会要我们在那儿睡...

很想念你煮的菜...在你离开后，我就很难在吃到那种味道了！

在你生病的那段期间，你还是照顾我们...虽然做化疗很辛苦，你还是那么地顾我...我还记得你有一次在厕所晕倒了，当时的我是多么地害怕，怕你随时会离开我...

当你生病到无方起身时，你还是要照顾我们，你让你媳妇煮饭给我们...

到了你离开的那天早上，不知是我太想你还是你 来通知我 你要离开了...当时的我 竟然在上课时哭了， 毫无预警地哭了，就连老师也吓倒了， 还以为是我的朋友欺负我呢 ... 放学后马上放下书包，跑去房间看你...看着你呼吸辛苦， 又不敢去看你，只好站在门外望着你...

谁知，到了晚上时，你突然呼吸困难 ...那声音我让我永生难忘 ...他们叫我快去吃饭，我赶紧把饭给吞了，站在你不远处看着你，乖乖地站在一旁... 在七点二十五分时，你的呼吸声停了， 大家也哭了...在那时我真的哭不出来，不是因为不伤心，而是不能接受...

我真的好想你哦...

Cry?

ya, i got my result today. it's suck. Suck until i dont know ever how to cry. Started when kexin told me (she saw it accidentally), my friend was shocked with my result. Aiks....at that time, i was so wish that kexin salah tengok. Haha...anyway, we cant change the truth... Congratulation to those who got straight As'.......finally i know that HUMAN is greedy! "Aiks,why this will get B? I should get A+!".....or in other words, we still got space to improve. Haha... Last but not least, human is curious...keep asking others' result. Or we will receive many calls from relatives. Haha....in other explaination, it's concern. well, keep on going, my friends! Please dont give up just because of the failure stone. I WONT!!

National Service.

Yes, finally i am the second batch. and my location is at Desaru. This place is where my mum hope me to get to. because she can go and relax while visiting me?! ops! Started when i knew i kena ns, i shouted at cy's house ( we checked tgt at the same time)...haha then i refused to accept the truth. until now, cy and others are coming back tomorrow. and i am going on 29 march. after twice thinking, i prefer to go. this is because i know i will regret if i delay the ns... but i am scared.

青蛙的故事

在青蛙的国都里 有个百年悠久历史的比赛，但这个比赛从来没有赢家... 一年一度的比赛又来临了，每个青蛙选手都在为这很高很陡的山做准备...但是各个都没信心...比赛开始了，大家都努力地往上努力前进，也一边低低咕咕地说："不可能有人能站上顶峰的！"..........选手们爬啊爬...有些选手没力了，滚了下来...有些呢，看到其他选手滚了下来，也放弃了....最后只剩下一位青蛙选手仍努力地往上爬，也不向后望去...........他最终成了第一位站上顶峰的赢家！ 大家非常好奇他是有何种的能耐能爬上顶峰....个个向他跑去问他........谁知，原来他是个聋子，所以他听不见其他选手的叹声，他只知道他的目标是那顶峰....向前冲！ 故事说完了，这故事的含义是.....当其他人都说不能时，请不要先放弃，让自己试试....不要因为其他人的冷嘲热讽，就先放弃.... this is what i get from a book. I try to do it. " Hey,anhui...which course you plan to study?" and i answered :" psychology lo!" "Huh, are you serious? But i heard this course is hard to get and study!" then i wordless.... Honestly, i know psychology is hard to study as it is about the human behavious and mind. But i am interested in this. what i can do?!..... Haha, i am already used to it when people know i am planing to take this course and the face of looking down of me...ops, spm result is coming out very soon! God will bless everyone of us...keep on going =)

很重要的人 =)

除了家人以外....(干嗲，干妈)....(Ah tiao 姨丈，阿姨)....(Ah pek 大伯，Ah em 大伯母)............now i only realise the heavy role of relatives in our lives. growing up....keep understand the circle of life. then i had become more cherish them. i feel happy when we all gather. happy to see everyone of them live happily. even though not often meet up, but when knowing them live well, i will thanks god. Thanks God... even though i will shy or talkless when we meet up. this is just because i wish to listen the story of you of the year. i heard my mum that my cousin who same age with me, is planing to study at jb in april. well, welcome to jb and hope we have nice chat always in the coming days. =)

Ah tiao.(福建华的姨丈)

姨丈出殡后啊，我们都会得到一条红绳子...我就把它绑在手机吊饰，心里就默默地跟姨丈说：“ 当这绳子离去时，就代表着你会永远保佑着阿姨，放心地去了你的极乐世界...这绳子我绑到很紧...可是它就在我不注意时，溜走了。*和我时常走走的朋友应该有留意到那条绳子吧...因为它和我手机很不搭................ 跟着我一星期........一路走好哦...