享受生命的每一刻当下

I saw some posts regarding this title somewhere. I found it so true.
Life just come once, once you missed out something, it is hard to find it back!

I am almost 20. In these years, I realized that I actually didnt really work hard to get what i actually desired for.
Maybe because i live in this fortune family. My parents would always provide me what i want.
I am not really admired those rich wealth family, because it doesnt mean rich is good!

During the trip back to JB, i was the only passenger in Big Bear's car.
We talked about God would treat everyone fairly.
maybe some people are rich but their family would not be so harmony!
Maybe someone is good in studies, but he/she doesnt look good. LOL no offenses, just saying!

then i told him: "ya, just like you, may be smart and rich, but...you are slightly not handsome!"
 WE LAUGHED!!!

then I asked myself: " what about me then? ugly and not as smart as my friends around..... what god give me then?"

He told me:" You have a optimistic attitude!"
LOL

Somehow so true. I had seen through alot of reality cases happened around. I could take it, because I have been trained for 20 years.

I hate people comparing with me. But i do like comparing myself with others. WHAT IS THE DIFFERENCE!

You cant see that?!

People would always compare me with others who has higher capability.
But for me, in order to make myself feel better or comfort when I got smth bad, I would always compare people who are suffered more.

See how pity are they, in another way round, telling me Im still doing good.
When I got my result poor, I always see some people cant actually get into the university.
When I got my parents scold, I know that some people are actually looking for the parents' care.

I know, this might discourage me to move forward. Keep telling myself that I am good enough because im keep comparing with the lower one.

IT IS JUST TEMPORARY.
THIS IS THE WAY I ENCOURAGE MYSELF, where I can actually do better!

Did it work? I am not sure.

Just like, you cant drag the rubber band to the max at one time, as it will break off.
Same go to human!
Correct me, if this kind of attitude is wrong :)

幸福

刚考完 两张 自认很难的考试后 想来这 整理最近的心情
现在的我 感觉很 满!满意?又不是,很难说!可是是正面的心情
为啥我会说幸福 是因为 我每天 起来时都还看到 阳光
最近不懂是压力太大 还是怎样啦 恶梦连连
有一度 都不想睡了
可是这星期已经没啦,睡足8个小时!棒!

另一个幸福 很想分享 但很害羞 LOL
正在吃东西的你 可能要停一停!哈哈哈
就是啊 每天早上 都能很顺利地 把昨晚吃进肚子的东西 送出来
有时看到 其他人 为 肚子输送 问题 烦恼 就觉得 自己很幸运
好像有点白痴 哈哈哈 无所谓啦

来说说考试吧
目前考了两张, 还有两张
第一张时, 做到一半 剩半小时 就看到有一个人 很 冲忙地跑了进来
不懂他为什么 迟到,可是当 那个监考的老师告诉他 不能考试时
我超 难过的 想像如果那个人 是我, 我会怎样?!
不过还好他有原因 也得到了 允许 让他在我们考完后 才考!

今天早上 刚考完的那一张呢 让我感觉到了 友谊
有一个朋友 突然考完就走了 还提早 了 45 分钟
我就在想说 哇 这样快啊?! (因为他平时是不待到最后一分钟是不会走的好学生)
哪里知道 我们一考完出来 才知道 他原来是跑去吐了
看他出来时 才发现 他很严重 冒冷汗 也把黄胆汁 给吐了
没力走路

其他人就在旁边看他 有什么要帮忙的
室友也跑回去 驾他车过来载他 *感动**
哈哈哈因为他过后还有考试嘛

这样的场景让我想起 我第一年 在学校住时 发烧两天~
痛苦不堪!也是 还好 有这一群朋友让我不觉得 那么的可怜
出门在外 真的是靠朋友

幸福!还有两张! 加油 :D

Hilarious Phenomena

You know the awkward moment, when you have been told to keep the secret all the times, You tried so hard to not tell others the secret, end up is the protagonist exposed themselves. Not by telling or informing them. but from their behavior, as people around them can see or feel that there is something wrong.

How funny is it when the protagonist know that people already knew the secret, they will start blaming the one who tried so hard to keep the secret.
Haha sometimes, it is ridiculous that why keeping these secret. Im trying so hard to thinking back and put myself in their situation... What i can come out is that, maybe it isnt the right timing to tell?!

I am that kind of person who will only help people to keep the secret which would hurt their reputation and even dignity! Sounds so serious?! but maybe what i think isnt the same as what they think, so they might think it is very important and if other knows, they will die. From my view of point, most of the time, it isnt like that. haha

So what i can conclude myself is that. DONT EVER TELL ME SECRET, only do it when the secret is terribly horribly will hurt you.