我不敢打开这个盒子 不希望也不愿意面对它背后的真相！所以我选择不看不问不听 把自己收在这盒子里和希望一起走下去！变成一种对动力！:)
潘朵拉的盒子
Pandora's box 源自於希腊神话，是宙斯給潘朵拉的神秘盒子，但原本在神話中是壺，壺在古希臘中是盛載食品的器具。宙斯要求潘朵拉不可以打開，但是潘朵拉不敵好奇心的誘惑，還是偷偷的把盒子打開了，然而在盒子裡面裝的是許多不幸的事物，疾病、禍害等。潘朵拉把盒子打開後，原本寧靜沒有任何災害動亂的世界開始動盪不安起來；慌亂中，潘朵拉趕緊蓋住盒子，結果盒內只剩希望沒飛出去。因此，即使人類不斷地受苦受難，生活中遭遇種種挫折和折磨，希望都不會消失。
我不敢打开这个盒子 不希望也不愿意面对它背后的真相！所以我选择不看不问不听 把自己收在这盒子里和希望一起走下去！变成一种对动力！:)
我不敢打开这个盒子 不希望也不愿意面对它背后的真相！所以我选择不看不问不听 把自己收在这盒子里和希望一起走下去！变成一种对动力！:)
十年了
过了一个没有你的十年，第十年了 也放开了！
放不开的只是对你的思念
每一年的这一天，身体模式好像会自动转成 静音！
可是 今年好了...转成 震动！进步了！哈哈
对你的思念慢慢成了一种推动力，觉得你一定在一角落推或拉我们一把！
当你走后，我认定了 安嫡 这个称号 是属于你的~
一开始 叫其他 朋友的妈妈 安嫡时，真的很变扭!
但现在 慢慢觉得 叫安嫡时很亲切 犹如在叫你一样
安嫡 安嫡 安嫡，我很想你！
当年的十一岁，现在的二十一岁，虽然还没女大十八变
可是我长大了，我和安妮 会好好的！
保佑 开心 平安！
放不开的只是对你的思念
每一年的这一天，身体模式好像会自动转成 静音！
可是 今年好了...转成 震动！进步了！哈哈
对你的思念慢慢成了一种推动力，觉得你一定在一角落推或拉我们一把！
当你走后，我认定了 安嫡 这个称号 是属于你的~
一开始 叫其他 朋友的妈妈 安嫡时，真的很变扭!
但现在 慢慢觉得 叫安嫡时很亲切 犹如在叫你一样
安嫡 安嫡 安嫡，我很想你！
当年的十一岁，现在的二十一岁，虽然还没女大十八变
可是我长大了，我和安妮 会好好的！
保佑 开心 平安！
FYP
FYP? You might thinking what on earth is that, same as me. Its name is FINAL YEAR PROJECT. and I never thought that it comes to me so fast. Since I was in Foundation, I kept hearing seniors discussing with their FYP here FYP there. I attended their presentation and really got impressed by their works. Never thought that I can handle it all by my own!
Now, which is Today. I got an email saying that we gotta choose our supervisor for FYP. I am shocked at the moment, even though I knew that it is just the matter of informing us early or later after the semester. I seriously got panic for the moment as I dont have any ideas on choosing the topic or either the supervisor.
It reminded me the time flies really fast, as now I almost get in touch with the FYP, which sounded very irrelevant to me for the past. Hahaha time flies, we grown! Cheers for the life, Live excitedly without fear!
Now, which is Today. I got an email saying that we gotta choose our supervisor for FYP. I am shocked at the moment, even though I knew that it is just the matter of informing us early or later after the semester. I seriously got panic for the moment as I dont have any ideas on choosing the topic or either the supervisor.
It reminded me the time flies really fast, as now I almost get in touch with the FYP, which sounded very irrelevant to me for the past. Hahaha time flies, we grown! Cheers for the life, Live excitedly without fear!
A promise
Yeah, before I start writing up, I would like to share one silly thing that I almost done to kill this blog. I wanted to post something last night but the thing was that I couldn't find the way to post it out. One moment I thought Blogger is shutting down and been replaced by NuffnangX. Or is that really happening now? I am not sure anyway. And I signed up one account in NuffnangX and planning to shift everything to my new lovely home. In the end, the stupid me only realizing that I was wrong, I just signed in this blog with my different account, and thats why I couldnt find a way to post!
Attention build?! Back to the track. A promise could be anything, but how many people on the earth can actually achieving their promise, even the small one. Well, what Im saying this is because me myself have failed to accomplish promise that I made. That's why I am expressing how shame I am and how proud to share if a promise is made.
Anyway, the focus is not on me. I just like to thanks one of friends. She is still making her promise until now. Not a fail so far. Well, I am saying You. Haha, before she went to another country for student exchanging program, she has made a promise with me that she will call me oftentimes! and now, she still calling me once in a week. We exchange information that happen on me and her. Well, although there is always up to a point we have no more to share, and its the time to say byebye, but I appreciate every single effort that she made on trying not to make me to feel like an outlier in the gang. Love from Malaysia <3 br="">
A promise can be easily made, but its hard to follow.
Attention build?! Back to the track. A promise could be anything, but how many people on the earth can actually achieving their promise, even the small one. Well, what Im saying this is because me myself have failed to accomplish promise that I made. That's why I am expressing how shame I am and how proud to share if a promise is made.
Anyway, the focus is not on me. I just like to thanks one of friends. She is still making her promise until now. Not a fail so far. Well, I am saying You. Haha, before she went to another country for student exchanging program, she has made a promise with me that she will call me oftentimes! and now, she still calling me once in a week. We exchange information that happen on me and her. Well, although there is always up to a point we have no more to share, and its the time to say byebye, but I appreciate every single effort that she made on trying not to make me to feel like an outlier in the gang. Love from Malaysia <3 br="">
A promise can be easily made, but its hard to follow.
stone or storm?
You might find the title abit strange. but it reflects my current life now. Maybe this situation should be expected when I decided to stay and not leave to UK for this semester.
I dont know why, I feel that 2013 is not treating me well. I lost my Ipad and Phone both in the same month and I stayed in JB for CNY due to some problem. Things and problems keep dragging my emotion down to the poor! BUT BUT BUT something sweet still comes to me.
Well, I moved to a new accommodation for this semester! and everything has to start over again! After staying one and a half year with my previous housemates,I found myself a bit lazy to start over again to being so polite when Im in the house. In the public, I used to be cheerful and talkative! But in the house, I like to be more quiet and only talk when I feel to. I mean, yeah, just be my true self. But since im moving to the new house, I have to follow their invisible house rule! Sometimes I just dont used to it but I have to try to get use to it.
Something like, we used to eat in our room together with the drama series. and yeah they are more like a family which spending the dinner time together and chat awhile after finishing the meal.
Skip this part to something sweetie! I felt quite severe homesick on the past weekend, and as usual I chatted with friend. and He called and asked me whether I have my dinner. which was almost 10pm. But he purposely drove all the way from petaling jaya and had a simply late dinner with me. This is really touched my heart because he actually can save up his petrol and time to just simply reply me on the facebook chat. but He didnt.
I dont know why, I feel that 2013 is not treating me well. I lost my Ipad and Phone both in the same month and I stayed in JB for CNY due to some problem. Things and problems keep dragging my emotion down to the poor! BUT BUT BUT something sweet still comes to me.
Well, I moved to a new accommodation for this semester! and everything has to start over again! After staying one and a half year with my previous housemates,I found myself a bit lazy to start over again to being so polite when Im in the house. In the public, I used to be cheerful and talkative! But in the house, I like to be more quiet and only talk when I feel to. I mean, yeah, just be my true self. But since im moving to the new house, I have to follow their invisible house rule! Sometimes I just dont used to it but I have to try to get use to it.
Something like, we used to eat in our room together with the drama series. and yeah they are more like a family which spending the dinner time together and chat awhile after finishing the meal.
Skip this part to something sweetie! I felt quite severe homesick on the past weekend, and as usual I chatted with friend. and He called and asked me whether I have my dinner. which was almost 10pm. But he purposely drove all the way from petaling jaya and had a simply late dinner with me. This is really touched my heart because he actually can save up his petrol and time to just simply reply me on the facebook chat. but He didnt.
Moving on to another thing is that I am going to travel oversea soon! Me and my friends decided to visit some friends in Australia and we travel together. Yeah, it seems like an impossible mission because I think most of our parents will not allow, as it gonna spend alot. Expected, originally we have 5 persons, and now ended up to only 3. hahaha It isnt that bad right. I also thought that the possibility of going is quite low because my parents would not allow, and I even imagined myself to the situation of begging them! but things got out of expected sweet! I just made a phone call and tell them everything we have planned earlier. And they replied me with a YES on the next day!
Life isnt that bad, 2013 still giving me some sweet! I find more and more sweetness from these little things. Although I am still not used to the current life now, but up to some points I still love it. **however, I still complaining a lot** hahaaha!
As a conclusion, it is a stone or storm? Well, its a stepping stone! If this is the storm, Im waiting for the rainbow to appear! (Rainbow come after rain what?!) Hahaha!
*thanks to YOU reminding me to update my blog, which allow giving me a way to relieve my tension!** Take good care, not only you can be a good listener, I am a good listener too! :)
Life isnt that bad, 2013 still giving me some sweet! I find more and more sweetness from these little things. Although I am still not used to the current life now, but up to some points I still love it. **however, I still complaining a lot** hahaaha!
As a conclusion, it is a stone or storm? Well, its a stepping stone! If this is the storm, Im waiting for the rainbow to appear! (Rainbow come after rain what?!) Hahaha!
*thanks to YOU reminding me to update my blog, which allow giving me a way to relieve my tension!** Take good care, not only you can be a good listener, I am a good listener too! :)
CHALLENGE ACCEPTED
URGH first time feel like killing and slap my face so much! very itchy in my mouth. i dont like how to describe that, but it is liked the baby would feel itchy when their tooth are coming out. EXACTLY THE SAME MEN!!!
I cannot bear with the itchiness, it is triggering my anger! stay in the room and not talking to someone is the best way to ease my anger! fucker itchiness, go away la!
I thought thats because some viruses have infected my wound, but doctor said it is under healing process and thats normal to feel itch. doctor, i trust you but dont let me punch you if it dont get better in few more days. the torture moment is that you cant do anything when the itch is in the mouth. If that is on skin, i can pinch it, hit, warm, or wash that.
FUCK YOU MOUTH >,<
I cannot bear with the itchiness, it is triggering my anger! stay in the room and not talking to someone is the best way to ease my anger! fucker itchiness, go away la!
I thought thats because some viruses have infected my wound, but doctor said it is under healing process and thats normal to feel itch. doctor, i trust you but dont let me punch you if it dont get better in few more days. the torture moment is that you cant do anything when the itch is in the mouth. If that is on skin, i can pinch it, hit, warm, or wash that.
FUCK YOU MOUTH >,<
2013 resolution
here i come to announce my this year resolution! haha will it be too late as we are now on the january's tail!
well i wanted to make my tooth nicer long time ago, and im now undergo the process of it! teeth bracer, sounds scary right? hope it wont be that pain as i thought! i just took off one of my teeth, gonna wear the bracer soon! The thing is that i already feel so cham after taking off one teeth cant imagine how will it be when i wear the bracer! haha
by wearing it, hope that i can throw away some fat which have been sticking with me for the past 20! fat, leave me alone, dont always follow me la wherever i go! be yourself, find your own life or new owner okay! im sick of you, shoo shoo go away! hahaa
gonn be 21, hope that everything will be achieved as i planned! yeah blogging loves life, i love blogging
A good start!
what the shit luck I have been for the past month! Lost Ipad and SmartPhone in the very same month! shopping in the pavilion, one bastard pickpocket my phone! good job, such a good skill uh, seriously I didnt realized at all until I saw my beg is opened!
Well, I felt shocked when losing the ipad. But for phone, I was just too surprised that my phone disappeared in such a short time, and kept discussing with friends! haha!
Well, realize that I am very fortune to have this gang of friends. People normally will comfort you and say something nice to you! but I realized the more close you and your friends are in the relationship, the more they will tease you with the matter!
after a few words of comforting me, they started to question me! *gonna write in mandarin, because it looks funnier and real in chinese**
朋友:" 啊 这一切是不是你自己计划好的？想要买新电话 可是不知道要怎么办 hor! 所以是不是就硬硬把电话塞给那个人! bla bla bla" hahahaa
I felt not that sad and relieved after listening their chit-chatting! they made such bad thing in a humor way which made our trip happier in the end!
thankiew for making everything works. I thought that it was just a joke but you guys made it real! :D
Well, I felt shocked when losing the ipad. But for phone, I was just too surprised that my phone disappeared in such a short time, and kept discussing with friends! haha!
Well, realize that I am very fortune to have this gang of friends. People normally will comfort you and say something nice to you! but I realized the more close you and your friends are in the relationship, the more they will tease you with the matter!
after a few words of comforting me, they started to question me! *gonna write in mandarin, because it looks funnier and real in chinese**
朋友:" 啊 这一切是不是你自己计划好的？想要买新电话 可是不知道要怎么办 hor! 所以是不是就硬硬把电话塞给那个人! bla bla bla" hahahaa
I felt not that sad and relieved after listening their chit-chatting! they made such bad thing in a humor way which made our trip happier in the end!
thankiew for making everything works. I thought that it was just a joke but you guys made it real! :D
Gonna be alone for the coming semester
Yea finally exam finished! The hardest moment is the waiting process, Im seriously fine with the exam but I dont like wait for so long, because my papers started only on the second week of exam period! Well before that I was damn looking forward for this day come. But I am not that happy now as here come to face the reality that I gonna be alone for the next sem! All the lovely housemates leave for UK mobility for one semester, I chose not going, in the fucking end regret myself. Not saying alone really that pity, I still have friends of course! But just that Im already used to the way we live and now I have to get use to another OPPOSITE style of living with that gang. What i meant different is that, our house dirty, theirs super clean! They are always so polite, gentle, caring with each other! We always FUCKING here FUCKING there, which I gonna miss it very much, especially when it comes out from bev!
曾几何时，我们已经习惯了不该习惯的习惯！one of my friends ngam ngam posting this caption with her picture, which make me feel like cry out loud! It is the exactly same feeling when I was leaving to US. well, hopefully I will be fine and sincerely wish that they have a safe and fun journey in UK very muchie! Bon voyage!
**I am pretty sure that I will forget theirs leaving and I would still ask my father drop me down at my tts house when he send me back to this jungy place!**
曾几何时，我们已经习惯了不该习惯的习惯！one of my friends ngam ngam posting this caption with her picture, which make me feel like cry out loud! It is the exactly same feeling when I was leaving to US. well, hopefully I will be fine and sincerely wish that they have a safe and fun journey in UK very muchie! Bon voyage!
**I am pretty sure that I will forget theirs leaving and I would still ask my father drop me down at my tts house when he send me back to this jungy place!**
Ambition
I believe that everyone had been asked to write an essay for one's ambition. If not on essay, I remembered primary teacher would always ask students to fill in the ambition into the report card. There are always 3 choices for us. I got the chance to look back what i wrote, and i realized that my first choice is psychiatry since I was primary 4, consistent until now! what surprising uh! Yeah, I wish to be that. but recently I realized that that is not easy. I mean, I found myself might not be suitable in doing this job.
I love to comfort people, i guess! or maybe I am good in comforting myself. Every time my friends call me and I love to suggest them in a way that they actually feel better. Some even told me that they feel better after talking to me. which I feel very proud of myself. but I met a bottleneck recently, hah! I have a friend who is quite depressing all the time. She has severe negative thinking. I had once talked to her for about 5 hours, she asked me how can i keep myself happy. I am doubt with the question. why do I need to keep myself happy all the time. isn't it tired? My answer, just be yourself, express your emotion out! and more and more questions which really surprised me. She know she is too depress, SHE KNEW, but she couldnt get herself out from that. she keep walking within the negative affect circle. which i guess this is the typical symptom of depression patient have.
I talked to her until my chin has almost dropped out. and I thought that she has changed. Yes, first second days she forced herself not to think in that negative way. but the duration of availing was not held long. She turns back again. Exam period, im pretty sure that she worked 110% but she kept saying that she will fail, fail fail. which drag me to the downpour! because i have gave up on comforting her. and this worry me, because i dont know whether i would have the persistent patience to counsel or help a patient.
Well well well... to whom read this, keep quiet and you know who im talking about. haha! shhh, secret!
I love to comfort people, i guess! or maybe I am good in comforting myself. Every time my friends call me and I love to suggest them in a way that they actually feel better. Some even told me that they feel better after talking to me. which I feel very proud of myself. but I met a bottleneck recently, hah! I have a friend who is quite depressing all the time. She has severe negative thinking. I had once talked to her for about 5 hours, she asked me how can i keep myself happy. I am doubt with the question. why do I need to keep myself happy all the time. isn't it tired? My answer, just be yourself, express your emotion out! and more and more questions which really surprised me. She know she is too depress, SHE KNEW, but she couldnt get herself out from that. she keep walking within the negative affect circle. which i guess this is the typical symptom of depression patient have.
I talked to her until my chin has almost dropped out. and I thought that she has changed. Yes, first second days she forced herself not to think in that negative way. but the duration of availing was not held long. She turns back again. Exam period, im pretty sure that she worked 110% but she kept saying that she will fail, fail fail. which drag me to the downpour! because i have gave up on comforting her. and this worry me, because i dont know whether i would have the persistent patience to counsel or help a patient.
Well well well... to whom read this, keep quiet and you know who im talking about. haha! shhh, secret!
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