Rejected. =(

what is the feeling after rejected by others? sad, disapointed? i had been rejected for times. everytime after the reject, i am deeply sad. cry? shout? NO,my heart will just bleeding. yup,sorry for my fren who invited me before but i absent. my excuss is my parent not allow me go. =( actually,i dint asked them even once since i realise that the feeling of had been rejected by others is so horrible, terrible, or.......... i dont know. i loss the confident to know the answer. i will only ask when i am confident with it( that my parent will let me go). i always need to ask for many days with hard, change condition with them ,can only come out. recently,they even worst. very sensitive to my society.... if i say i go out with friends,they allow. but if i say go and do my society's things,they will start ngam ngam-ING. do u know that? i always need to pack kit's thing when my dad is not around or when they are sleeping. like a thief. but now better. ks helping me keep the kit and i just give him the things when needed. i m sorry that i dint do my jod well. by the way,thanks ks for helping me so much. i m truly thank you to him. haiz. well,i think this post come out many ppl will know that i was lied bah. kena punished liao lie~ sorry for my....................(i dont what word suitable for it)........and thanks for your understanding.